Tuesday, September 9, 2008

In case there's no tomorrow, I love you.

I just had a terrible phone call with one of my best friends. She called to tell me that one of her friends had lost her husband in a car accident the night before last. He has left behind his wife and their two little boys aged four and three.

I cannot even begin to comprehend what she must be going through right now.

The accident happened only five minutes from home. She heard the sirens wailing at midnight then an hour later the police were knocking on her door with the tragic news.

My heart is broken into a thousand pieces for her right now.

My friend and I of course talked about all the things that are possibly happening right now. All the things that may have been left unsaid. Fights unresolved.

It has also got me to thinking about this online world that so many of us are so heavily involved in. I have made a lot of 'virtual' friends, friends that my husband, family and friends don't know. I wonder what would happen if I died ... how would you all find out? Who would care? Is a virtual friendship as important as a real life one? I know I have online friends that I would be truly devastated to discover if some tragedy had befallen them. But how would I ever know?

For me, I would probably announce an exit from this online world, so if that never happens yet you see no more blogs, no Tweets and no uploads to flickr, chances are that awful thing that I can barely bare to talk about has happened to me.

Currently there are people in my life who I have left things unsaid with. They range from family to friends. Some of them I don't have the courage to say the words I want, or need, to say to them. Others, I just haven't had the time, which is pathetic.

I've already kissed, hugged and told my husband and kids that I love them today. As I do every day. But I haven't told my best friend that she means the world to me. I haven't told my mum and dad. And I haven't told others some things I should have.

Sometimes life comes and kicks you in the guts and fucks it all up. Tell the people that are important to you what they mean to you. There may not be a tomorrow.

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