Broken

It hasn't happened for a long time now and yet after such a positive week I should have seen it coming ... Master 4 got to me so much today that he broke me. I wound up sobbing my heart out as I just didn't have the strength to deal with him anymore. Every day my ability as a mum is tested and on the whole I think I do okay ... but every now and then I get defeated. There are so many positives for parenting and I wouldn't change my life for the world ... but man is this the hardest job in the world or what? I feel a sense of guilt about going back to work, which I am sure I shouldn't but ... geez .... haha ... mother guilt. Arrives the day your first child is born and goes with you to your grave. Meh ... I'm okay, just had to get that off my chest. Back to regular programming ...