Breathe girl, breathe.

I've kind of lost the passion to blog of late. So much has been going on with work that I just don't have the time to sit down and write. Also, I've had nothing of consequence to say.

I'm not doing this for anyone else ... I mean I write this for me. I'm not good at checking how many visitors I've had and I have no idea really how many people are interested in what I write, so numbers don't matter to me.

Having said that then, I could ramble away and assume my only audience is me, right? So what do I care what I write? But still I do care, just in case :)

I've been sick now for over 2 weeks. I'm tired of coughing and I have a pain in my sternum. The last time I was sick for this long was when I went to the US. I got sick 2 weeks before I left and was still sick when I got home almost 2 weeks later. I think I'm rundown and I need a break. Not just physically though, but mentally too.

Building this business, including the online component, has been so stressful. Every day I think about what to stock, how to do it, am I ordering too little, am I ordering too much, am I going to be able to pull this off and make money or stay in the black even! My brain is constantly thinking, over thinking, worrying. I am scared. I am excited. It feels like I'm standing on the edge of a cliff, about to jump. Will I survive?

To be honest I'm not even sure why I'm crazy enough to do this whole online thing. I mean what the heck do I know about computers?? I can turn one on ... I can type, I can email ... I can whack a picture on a blog post ... what am I doing??

By Friday I have to put in an order for some summer stock. It is a brand new line, one that I am so excited about. I will be one of the first people to stock it. It will be available on my website ... but I don't get it til August. So I am nervous. This is the part of fashion retail that I hate. This ordering months in advance.

I think I'm getting an ulcer.